Hey, its ya boi Nick here with my confession that I have been holding in for a long time. This confession is probably going to have people disown me but that is my punishment and I am willing to take it.
I shall break these down into parts and each part will have it's own thing.
Envy - I have a competitive and a really bad jealousy complex. It mostly goes for art and videos. The reason is that since I think my art is never good and I look at artist who are more skilled. I get really jealous and I also feel like they're mocking me with their videos and art. I know it's not that way but just that feeling. Maybe that's why it keeps me motivated, we will never know. Any who, it's very obvious who I'm talking about and I feel really jealous for. If they decide to never talk to me again or ignore me or do other stuff, that is fine by me as that whatever they decide is my punishment.
Envy List -
Betrayal - This technically goes to one person. Anyway I felt betrayed when that person left and unfriended me on steam. I also like to apologize to a person that I said some mean things to. This person is
I might be block which understandable but sorry Glassen, that I said some mean things to you. This apology is long overdue and I feel like a jick.
Betrayal list -
Watchers - I always felt proud that you guys would actually watch me but when I can't find out a way to reply and never reply to your comments. I feel a lot of guilt, like a lover who never text back. I always wondered if I was a bother to you guys and I could never finish what I always start. I want you guys to feel appreciated but in the end I felt like I was a liar, a cheat, and a traitor. If there is a punishment you guys wish I will not resist.
(By the way, this is some of the unfinished work - Devious Journal Draft, Untitled Draft, Hell of a Planet)
I am sorry if this is a waste of time for you guys, I was thinking about leaving for about 2 weeks, active but gone.